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Monday, September 21, 2015


OMG! Scroll thru past posts make me realized how stupid I am. Funny doh kau A. I wrote trash things with trashy language.


So today...


Today ive tendered after 2 years and 8 months service.
God. I have this mixed feelings in me. Im happy, sad and afraid all at once.
Happy that I finally have the guts to take the risk to leave this company. Sad that i have to left few people in this company who I care I love. And Im terrified of what wait for me after this. How this will affect my future after this.

Oh Allah, guide me.

Allah, aku memohon petunjukmu Allah. Bimbing lah aku. Show me whats right and whats wrong.

Relax. Put your trust in Allah. He will help. In Shaa Allah.

Whats your plan dear self? Whats next?

Goodluck A!


Saturday, September 14, 2013


Walking, working, barely breathing. 

My thoughts, far away. 
Heart aching, mind racing sleep does not come easily, nor last long. 

I still run,I still swing open the door, I stiall think you'll be there like before. 

Doesn't everybody out there know to never come around? 

Some things a heart won't listen to ,I'm still holding out for you. 

I am tired of chafing my heart against the want of you,of squeezing it into little ink drops, and posting it. 

I gotta leave, I gotta go, there’s nothing here for me no more. 
I gotta be free, I gotta be somewhere that I can just be me. 

And I run, runaway. I’ll runaway. 

I miss you and everything you were to me.

You gonna miss me, F.


Friday, June 14, 2013


Kata-kata kau tajam.
Tiap kali kau cakap aku terpaksa pejam.
Sampai bila nak macam ni?
Luar aku gagah.
Dalam aku rapuh.

Saturday, June 1, 2013


Aku selalu takut.
Takut kau cakap aku tak ada bila kau memerlukan seseorang teramat.
Bila kau sakit.
Bila kau susah.

Kenapa aku perlu rasa macam tu sedangkan kau tak ada bila aku butuh.

Cinta gila.
Itu jawapannya.

Thursday, May 23, 2013

Being used. Used to.


Tak suka.

Perasaan ni suka main peek-a-boo.

Datang berkunjung tiap-tiap bulan, stay for min 3 days.

Kecelakaan apa ni?
Nak dimaki.
Nak dicaci.

The feeling yang aku tahu kalau aku cakap panjang, kita mesti gaduh.
Aku tak nak gaduh.

Kau suka buat tak tahu.
Atau kau tahu,
Tapi kau saja taknak tahu,
Kau tak nak amik tahu.


Aku nak cakap tapi mulut aku terkunci rapat.
Hanya aku nak selamatkan sesuatu yang aku tahu takkan dapat.

Buat apa diperjuangkan lagi?

Soalan bodoh.
Si bodoh.

Friday, April 26, 2013


I realized that Im holding on something that didn't exist anymore.That the person I missed didn't exist anymore.

People change.

Things we like and dislike change. And we can wish they wouldn't all day long, but that never works.